I know it's late, I ordered my phone online. I was thinking of going to SLO and getting it there but these days, I don't get up early. I've got insomnia so when I sleep, I sleep. I don't really have any place to go or be unless I've got doctor's appointments. I have a few of those next month. For now, I'm taking it easy, doing some reading, catching up on birthday lunches (thanks Jen), been baking lately, doing a little cooking here and there. I wish the cooking can be an everyday thing but it just isn't. If I had a crew that would probably chop everything that I needed like how the Food Network does it, maybe. If I didn't have to clean the kitchen, wash the dishes after I cooked, maybe but when you're the only one that does all that, I get lazy. Trying to eat more healthy. Emphasis on the word "trying." I know I'll get there somehow. I'm just not in a rush to do it. As it is, I survive on 2 meals a day. My appetite has changed. I eat when I'm hungry and I get full faster. I guess you can say that's a good thing but it's weird to me. I thought I would take advantage now because I've had some dental work done so it's not as bothersome to eat certain foods but I haven't been adventurous lately. Possibly when Amy and I go to SoCal in a few weeks. A friend of mine told me that she and her co-workers were doing the Blacklight Run in LA (actually in Pomona). She ask me to join and of course I ask Amy to do it with me, we will walk in memory and honor of her mother Dawn and I'll do it for my baby girl Amelia. It should be fun. Amy and I haven't done a girls trip in about 5 years. We are overdue for one. I will blog about that when I get back.
Things are calm these past few weeks. I've made amends with people that I was upset with. That's help my heart heal slowly. We are healing, slowly. Aaron and I had placed some flowers at the cemetery on Saturday. Last time we were there was Amelia's burial.
We are continuing to grieve but at the same time, we are moving on. We laugh, we cry, we are happy, we are sad. That is life, it is normal. That day will come when we won't hurt as much anymore, when the thought of them won't bring tears to our eyes. One day at a time. That's all we can really do. Rely on God for guidance and strength. Look to friends and family for love and support.
To those who have shown their love and support, thank you so very much.
Until next time.......
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